Category: Plans & Events

A busy week!

Managed to finish Viola Davis’s memoir “Finding Me” in just 9 days! Makes me very happy. I might even succeed in going back to the plan of about one book per month!

Some thoughts : 

  • The writing was pretty raw and less polished than I’ve read in memoirs previously, but considering the subject matters, it felt very appropriate and unfiltered.
  • I had not realized how much of a significance How To Get Away With Murder had : for some reason, when it started airing, it seemed to me that Viola was a household name and her casting was entirely and unquestionably warranted. It actually is, but that’s not how a lot of people saw it. I also did not know how challenging the journey to get there had been. 
  • Though we actually have very little in common, I found her sensibility and sensitivity very relatable. Though I can still only imagine what she’s gone through from the words on the pages, as opposed to how she experienced it all, I have so much empathy for her courage and her pain. 
  • Describing her witnessing of her father’s death hit a very sensitive and very raw wound, having gone through something similar just recently, and I’ll admit I broke down. 
  • Her resilience shows so much through the pages, against everything she has endured. I already had a lot of respect for her, and the memoir sincerely cemented that.

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Though I had “The Origins of Creativity” on my to-read next, “Atomic Habits” by James Clear became available on the Libby app. I’d put a hold on it and I had delayed that hold probably 3 times by now, so when I got the notification again on Friday night, knowing “Finding Me” was possible to finish in the next day, delaying the loan again didn’t make sense. Will hopefully finish it by the end of April.

Actually, I really have to finished it by May 3rd, as there are still many people waiting to get their turn so I wouldn’t be able to renew the loan..!

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The advent of the once-in-20-years event that The Rasmus concert will be next month has spurred me to try and prepare drawings for them to sign if my friends and I end up being lucky enough to chat with them in person. So I have about a month to both practice, and to complete 4 quality drawings to get printed and signed. A challenge!

Here are the two I’ve done so far, Emppu and Eero :

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My 7 dailies have been completed in full for the past 3 days! First time in… a really long time. It made me proud, but at the same time, it didn’t bring back the pressure to complete everything all the time, especially at the end of the day. Rushing to check off a botched task at the end of the day, exhausted and fed up, is not bringing me joy. Cleaning-slash-tidying up might be an exception, because the results are tangible and helpful. A quick doodle or two Finnish words I won’t remember is not added value. 

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For the first time in years, I attended a live model drawing session (yes, the nude kind) on Sunday, to improve both on anatomy and fluidity skills. Hadn’t realized it until I got there, but that specific session carried an additional challenge : a female model. 

See, growing up drawing for fun from my own mind helped a lot to develop my creativity, and my imagination. Unfortunately, the latter tends to interfere with the attempts to realistically recreate something. Paired with being especially critical of the curves I draw, a female model thus presents a significant risk of frustration. 

The sessions take place at one of the city’s universities, for a very modest price, and they alternate female and male models. I decided to go at the last minute this weekend because there wouldn’t be one the following Sunday, as the university is completely closed during Easter. 

It actually went particularly well! Frustrating at first, but I reminded myself both that it had been years, and that this was a significant challenge, and to give myself some grace. It did help, and I still managed to go home with several pieces I’m very happy with!

I do see and feel a weakness in drawing feet, so I’ll do the mature artist thing and go practice that specifically. There are still two weeks until the next session, so plenty of time to find tutorials and to improve even a bit.

Various life updates

It’s been a while! To be completely frank, I lacked inspiration, and kept procrastinating. Exciting news were received today however, so I’ll get on with all of this!

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First, the less joyful but fulfilling nonetheless : I finished reading Enlightenment by Sarah Perry on the morning of April 1st. The physical copy I’d gotten from the Grande Bibliothèque de Montréal helped tremendously with focus. It had been too long since I’d had a real book in my hands.

The story was an exercise in finding ways to relate to characters I had little in common with, at least at first. The two main characters, Thomas and Grace, are initially found in a rather… old-fashioned baptist community. Thomas seems to be a bit of an outsider in every setting, and eventually we find out why. Watching him fall in love with astronomy and hold on to past loves was very endearing.

So is Grace, whose oddness, curiosity and hunger clash with her faith on several occasions and in as many different ways. Her temper, confusion, and conflict, while not one I specifically encountered, was nonetheless very relatable.

Overall the story was very human, both through the main characters and those orbiting them in the present, and through the mystery figure Thomas searches for in the past. Imperfect individuals trying their best to build a good life with what they’re given and falling prey to their own emotions.

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On April 2nd, the very next day, I started with Viola Davis’s memoir Finding Me. I knew I needed something especially engaging, and memoirs often do the trick. This one is no exception : a week later, it’s almost halfway done! 

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I’m now a week and half back into my previous habits. My objective of completing 4 out of 7 of my daily goals turned out pretty well so far. Though itching to go back to fully fill out my checkmarks everyday, I also know that rushing into it is just likely to mess things up. I took a month off from expectations, I will at least give myself a few weeks to get back on track properly.

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One of the things I was aiming for was to draw for longer periods and more intentionally : make it a practice and actually work at it. I still haven’t pushed myself to do it. It is absolutely fear of messing up and of upsetting myself in the process. How annoying is it, to upset myself into being afraid of being upset! 

Last week, I revisited my portfolio to motivate myself. Having not practiced consistently for years, my skills have rusted, and it is frustrating to try and shake it off. Looking back meant to inspire me, and to remind me that if I managed to get to that level of skills, I can do it again. It is going to necessitate intentional work, and it is going to remain frustrating for a long while, but it’s possible.

And it did inspire me. But I’m still afraid. That’s also something that needs work.

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The exciting news : 21 years after their first visit to Montreal, The Rasmus are coming back in a month for a concert!! 

I cannot properly express how deeply their appearance in my life shaped it. The people I met, the experiences and opportunities, the growth that came from all of it… There is no wondering what my life would have been like had I not stumbled on their video for In The Shadows and subsequently gotten obsessed. I am genuinely grateful for all of it.

While there is some catching up to do on their discography, I look forward to it, and to both revisit memories and make new ones. 

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I’ve been binge-watching Yellowjackets this week, which is all kinds of messed up and convoluted, but doing a great job and keeping me engaged. For the most part. There have been moments when it felt it was more background noise than anything else, and it made me reflect on my binging tendencies. No breakthrough yet, but awareness is the first step…

JMV’s passions

Trying to return to the regular scheduled updates! Sometimes normal is the effort you make to go back to it.

I attended another of Centre PHI’s events this past Saturday this time a free exhibition about late director Jean-Marc Vallée’s passion for music. 

Jean-Marc Vallée (1963-2021) was a Canadian filmmaker, director and screen writer born in Montreal. He also enjoyed DJing.

From Wikipedia: 

He was known for his naturalistic approach to filming, encouraging actors to improvise during takes, and used natural lighting and handheld cameras. He described himself as being like “a kid on a set. A kid playing with a huge toy and having fun”.

You might be familiar with some of his projects, notably C.R.A.Z.Y., Dallas Buyers Club, Wild, and Big Little Lies.

I had seen some of his work, notably C.R.A.Z.Y., which is so emblematic of Quebec culture. It’s always so validating to be able to relate to an artist’s work, especially one that is local but gained international renown the way he had. Some of his earlier work, such as Les Mots Magiques, features very typical Québécois details such as the snow truck, with its annoying horn, warning residents to come move their parked vehicles so snow can be removed from the streets. 

It just so happens that after two heavy snowfalls within a few short days of another, we have recently had a historical amount of accumulation in Montreal streets last week, and it is still the same noise to make the same request, 27 years later.

The exhibition focused on his relationship to music, and how he used it in his work to provoke specific emotion in the audience. 

Honestly, his passion, even second-hand through interviews with friends, family and colleagues, and short clips of his work, still managed to be very vivid and contagious. I came out with several things to check out. It made me miss the times when I was passionate about new music. I can’t remember last time that happened. It’s definitely something to cultivate.

My only complaint about the exhibition was that the hour allotted for it was not enough to watch and hear everything. We were thankfully let in earlier than our entry time, but as this was the last slot of the day and the Centre was closing afterwards, we had no choice but to leave. There was also no other availability for the rest of the run of the exhibition. I think they might prolong it should there be enough interest, but then again I’d probably let other people enjoy it. 

There were interview clips with Marc-André Grondin, Alexandra Stréliski, Denis Villeneuve, but also Laura Dern, Reese Witherspoon and Matthew McConaughey.

I had only seen some of Jean-Marc Vallée’s work, though I was familiar with many other titles, and it made me curious to see more. I also came out with a lot of music recs to look into. Considering this event was a bit of a random choice for me, it was definitely worth it!

Habitat Sonore : Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds – Wild God

Already about to start the second week of January!!

In an effort to increase my exposure to new things, I perused the various events offered by the numerous cultural institutions in Montreal, where I live. The Phi Centre has often very interesting presentations, and this one caught my eye. 

The name of Nick Cave was familiar, though no particular work came to mind. I was aware enough that he’s an artist that has had a lot of influence, so regardless of whether the actual music pleased me, I knew it was a worthwhile exercise. 

Habitat Sonore : Listening Room is an immersive experience with 360 degree sound surround. From the Phi Centre website : 

“Habitat Sonore is an intimate listening space designed to accommodate up to 10 people. This small capacity enhances total immersion into the sound world of artists from here and elsewhere. The experience unfolds in near darkness, which helps to emphasize the sound. We invite you to settle in comfortably, let your mind wander, close your eyes if you wish, and be carried away by a unique and captivating auditory journey.”

My session was reserved for Friday January 4th, at 5:30PM. It wasn’t quite full but we were some 8 people sharing the experience.

YouTube playlists throughout the day on Friday helped me get familiar with the general sound, and one particular piece caught my ear – Into My Arms, from the album The Boatman’s Call (1997). It was also featured in a montage in About Time (2013), one of my favourite movies. I also took the time to go through the Wikipedia page to get a sense of Nick’s, and the band’s journey.

The listening session started with about 15 minutes of interviews, in which I was amused to hear that Mr Cave doesn’t enjoy making records. As an artist myself, though visual, it felt very relatable – not all parts of art-making is enjoyable, but often, it feels inherently necessary, and there is little to do but proceed.

The album’s track list goes as follows :

  1. Song of the Lake
  2. Wild God
  3. Frogs
  4. Joy
  5. Final Rescue attempt
  6. Conversion
  7. Cinnamon Horses
  8. Long Dark Night
  9. O Wow O Wow
  10. As the Water Covers The Sea

Often, it was the mood of the melody that got my attention, like in Song Of The Lake, more than the lyrics. Conversely, the third verse of Wild God especially, as well as the outro of Conversion, have the sort of dynamic beats that hook me.

On the other hand, the slower, almost-spoken Joy! also very much moved me. “We’ve all had too much sorrow, now is the time for joy” resonated deeply after a year of significant hardships. Perhaps it’s something to strive for.

Overall, to me it felt very atmospheric, and the Listening Room was a very interesting way to experience it. While I neither went in a fan, nor came out one, I’m very glad that I took the time and had the opportunity to get better acquainted with their work. Perhaps it will connect better an another time of my life, but it was quite enjoyable at the time as well.

You can listen to the Wild God album in its entirety as uploaded on Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds‘s YouTube channel.

What about you? Have you made any recent musical discoveries, or have any artist to recommend?

Have a great week ahead!

Habitat Sonore : Wild God by Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds

Making Learning A Regular Habit

Hello again!! I hope your weekend is starting on a positive note 🙂

Time to get a bit candid in this one!

Fear of failure has been a significant struggle of mine for far too long – at least as far as mid-teenage years. Half-blessed, half-cursed with often picking up new skills easily, but not always, it has discouraged me from putting more time into the ones that took more effort.

It has unfortunately also affected my art, to the point where the purpose of starting anything at all was lost in the apprehension of it not being perfect, which is quite an obstacle to thriving in general. Skills have eroded during that dormancy as well, so I’m currently unable to create at the same level I once did.

And so! In order to go back to basics, and probably learn several things along the way as I was largely self-taught, courses and tutorials will become regular items in my schedule.

I currently have access to Skillshare until May and will take advantage of the teaching format it offers, but the hope is to diversify and hopefully include in-person classes as well eventually. Suggestions are also always open!

For now, the 5 first classes I have bookmarked :

  • Learn To Draw : Daily Practices To Improve Your Drawing Skills, by Gabrielle Brickey (1h24m)
  • Learn To Draw : A Comprehensive Intro To Drawing Foundation & Style, by Mimi Chao (4h22m)
  • Mobile Photography – Your Complete Guide, by Phil Ebiner (3h3m)
  • iPhone Photography : How To Take Pro Photos On Your iPhone, by Dale McManus (55m)
  • One-Line Drawing : Cultivate Calm And Creativity, by Altea Alessandroni (30m)

The current plan is to complete one class or course a week, but as you can see, the length varies quite a bit, so that might change!

I obviously can’t really share the contents of those classes here, but I can share the results and my own highlights 🙂

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School has been fun for me, mostly when it involved learning theory and understanding principles. But art-related classes require the application of skills that my brain cannot “cheat” its way through, so while the subjects often interested me, the fear of feeling inadequate, of not succeeding as quickly as I felt I should, always stopped me from both learning new techniques, and progressing.

Perfectionism actually doesn’t help anything.

So this year, let’s make things imperfectly, rather than not doing them at all!

 

12 Books In 12 Months

I’ve read a good deal in 2024, but not as much as hoped considering the previous two years, so the plan is to make this a more conscious activity.

12 books in 12 months is a fairly low objective for a lot of people, but aiming lower creates an opportunity to surpass the goal which, at least in my case, makes for an even more satisfying success!

Here are the titles I’ve earmarked for this year. They are subject to change and are not in priority order, as some will be borrowed from the library and have a waiting list.

Non-fiction : 

This category has been the most I’ve read of the 3 in the past few years. Understanding the world, people and their inner workings is always a thrill!

The choices here reflect this year’s aim to improve my systems, especially those around creativity.

  1. The Origins of Creativity – Edward O. Wilson

“Reflecting on the deepest origins of language, storytelling, and art, Wilson demonstrates how creativity began not ten thousand years ago, as we have long assumed, but over one hundred thousand years ago in the Paleolithic age. Chronicling this evolution of creativity from primate ancestors to humans, The Origins of Creativity shows how the humanities, spurred on by the invention of language, have played a largely unexamined role in defining our species. And in doing so, Wilson explores what we can learn about human nature from a surprising range of creative endeavors–the instinct to create gardens, the use of metaphors and irony in speech, and the power of music and song.”

  1. Mindfulness And The Art of Drawing – Wendy Ann Greenhalgh

“In this book, Wendy Ann Greenhalgh explores how the simple act of putting pen to paper creates a deeper connection with ourselves and the world around us. Through mindful creative exercises,  personal anecdote, and a fresh outlook on perception, she reveals how doodlers and artists at any level in their craft can discover the mindful joys of drawing.”

  1. Atomic Habits – James Clear

“If you’re having trouble changing your habits, the problem isn’t you. The problem is your system. Bad habits repeat themselves again and again not because you don’t want to change, but because you have the wrong system for change. You do not rise to the level of your goals. You fall to the level of your systems. Here, you’ll get a proven system that can take you to new heights.”

  1. The Art of Learning – Josh Waitzkin

“With a narrative that combines heart-stopping martial arts wars and tense chess face-offs with life lessons that speak to all of us, The Art of Learning takes readers through Waitzkin’s unique journey to excellence. He explains in clear detail how a well-thought-out, principled approach to learning is what separates success from failure. Waitzkin believes that achievement, even at the championship level, is a function of a lifestyle that fuels a creative, resilient growth process. Rather than focusing on climactic wins, Waitzkin reveals the inner workings of his everyday method, from systematically triggering intuitive breakthroughs, to honing techniques into states of remarkable potency, to mastering the art of performance psychology.”

Memoirs : 

Similarly to non-fiction, getting acquainted with other people’s stories has been such a fantastic way to better understand humanity and sometimes, my own.

The following titles have been chosen because their authors are already people I admire, though it’s not excluded that less affectioned figures might make the cut at an ulterior time.

  1. Finding Me – Viola Davis

Finding Me is a deep reflection, a promise, and a love letter of sorts to self. My hope is that my story will inspire you to light up your own life with creative expression and rediscover who you were before the world put a label on you.”

  1. Making it So – Sir Patrick Stewart

“From his acclaimed stage triumphs to his legendary onscreen work in the Star Trek and X-Men franchises, Sir Patrick Stewart has captivated audiences around the world and across multiple generations with his indelible command of stage and screen. Now, he presents his long-awaited memoir, Making It So, a revealing portrait of an artist whose astonishing life—from his humble beginnings in Yorkshire, England, to the heights of Hollywood and worldwide acclaim—proves a story as exuberant, definitive, and enduring as the author himself.”

  1. Not My Father’s Son – Alan Cumming

“With ribald humor, wit, and incredible insight, Alan seamlessly moves back and forth in time, integrating stories from his childhood in Scotland and his experiences today as a film, television, and theater star. At times suspenseful, deeply moving, and wickedly funny, Not My Father’s Son will make readers laugh even as it breaks their hearts.”

  1. Down With The System – Serj Tankian

“Braiding together Serj’s thought-provoking insight with heartfelt and poetic prose, Down with the System retraces Serj’s remarkable and unlikely journey, and explores what it’s taught him – about music, about art, about activism, and about himself. It’s an unforgettable ride that will leave you breathless – and an absolute delight for new fans and old ones alike.”

Fiction : 

While I thrived on fiction for a large part of my reading life, in the recent past it’s taken a less important role. However, creativity (again, an aim for this year) ends to be significantly enhanced by experiencing that of others, so a specific effort will be made towards that 🙂

  1. Enlightenment – Sarah Perry

“A thrillingly ambitious novel of friendship, faith, and unrequited love, rich in symmetry and symbolism, Enlightenment is a shimmering wonder of a book and Sarah Perry’s finest work to date.”

  1. Thud! – Terry Pratchett (Discworld)

“With his beloved Watch crumbling around him and war-drums sounding, he must unravel every clue, outwit every assassin and brave any darkness to find the solution. And darkness is following him.

Oh . . . and at six o’clock every day, without fail, with no excuses, he must go home to read ‘Where’s My Cow?’, with all the right farmyard noises, to his little boy.

There are some things you have to do.”

  1. Snuff – Terry Pratchett (Discworld)

“He is out of his jurisdiction, out of his depth, out of bacon sandwiches, and occasionally snookered and out of his mind, but never out of guile. Where there is a crime there must be a finding, there must be a chase and there must be a punishment.

They say that in the end all sins are forgiven.

But not quite all…”

  1. Five Little Indians – Michelle Good

“With compassion and insight, Five Little Indians chronicles the desperate quest of these residential school survivors to come to terms with their past and, ultimately, find a way forward.”

It is not excluded that other titles might find their way into my year as it progresses, notably a few graphic novels that have already piqued my interest. The only reason none are included in the list is that they’re much shorter to read, so they’ll take less than a week. It’s too easy! So they’ll pad up my final yearly count instead 🙂

The Origins of Creativity was duly started on January 1st, but then The Art Of Learning became available to borrow that same evening, so let’s make it January’s goal instead! 

Do you have any reading objectives this year? Any particular title you’re looking forward to, or a favourite to recommend?

Wishing you a fantastic start of the year!!

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